Today I dont want to do anything, I have no desire for money, dont care about posessions, dont care about work or school, dont care if im around people or alone.
I really wish I wasnt this way, but I just cant get myself motivated to do anything.
I really think ive been this way my whole life, just when I was younger I was so obsessed with pleasing people that it appeared that I had motivation.
Every move I make is monitored in my mind of what others will think and how I can impress them - which becomes extremely stressful and depressing!
That is probably why I just choose to do nothing now.
Actually though maybe, my true personality is simply one that is highly unmotivated.
I personally feel exactly the same way as you do and always have.
I too have spent my life endeavors trying to please others or impress them.
I cannot seem to do anything from a place of any type of true desire for self fulfillment - and definitely not consistently.
I don't really want a career, I'm not motivated by money, or fame or anything.
So, for my whole life up until the end of high school I was obsessed with pleasing people.
Everything I did was to make somebody proud of me, weather it being my parents, friends, teachers, strangers.